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Long long time

2010-10-12T03:07:00.000+08:00

is really long long time le...
i am glad that i could remember that i still have this blog other then my LJ..
Compare to LJ this blog i have more post and the feeling of everything change...
the 1st day i create this blog i just want to honor God but in the end i screw everything in my life...
the 1 day i have decide to have LJ i still thinking on mantianing this blog but i took it for granted and forget about everything...
sound like my life...
taking everything for granted anf even shepherds now things change within one day and it brings me to a place to go insane...
have that i am xj...
I am just the xj that all of u know and i dont want to change...
i guess is time i end this blog soon...
or rather will continue once every few months =)
hope to get com 1st so ya bye bye gtg rest....

I am tired

2010-07-04T05:52:00.000+08:00

I guess in life sometime everything sucks but sometimes there are happy stuff to get happy about...
a word hurts but a love might heal..
a drunk person might go bang wall the next moment donno depress or gee la liao...
esp ppl like me bang wall also no body care... because i am like the donno who bang into lamp post all the time...
wth sianzzz.. never sleep and choing like crazy now have to wait for 7 to come...
go bath and then change and meet Eunice Lai...
SIAO LIAO LA NOW 5 plus 6 liao le FTW....

2012

2009-11-17T10:31:00.000+08:00

Hey people never blog for quite a number of days liao anw went to watch 2012 with Joel,Melvin and Fahmi it was like very real and of cos the world wont end on 21-12-2012 de so no worries man and of cos today did funny things and of cos stupid things with the 'UNSTOPPABLE' anw today everything joel pay so dont need to take pocket money good right anw that is not the point 2012 is really 1 movie that talk to me about faith and about when the world is going how the people react and cause problem and the ending is of cos all the people survive la so want to know more go and watch la......

Self service

2009-11-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

Thank you for being the people who help me through with emo-ness on weekdays

2009-10-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hey dear friends eps Haidah thank you for listining and being the people who let me enjoy my weekday when my weekends are really so sucks and hopefully I will still be with you guys let look at photos

Photo speak more than word

2009-10-21T21:29:00.001+08:00

All I want is too take down the mask and get a break and go back to the past it may not be good in the past but I know that I would rather stay in the past then now .......
All the time people being left out in a whole group is always the one who have problems and keep to their and of cos i am not one of these people only a few time I choose to be left out.....
All the thing that happen could not be express out and the best is all the things just stuck.....
All thing can change and anywhere , anytime and at any seasons of our life I just feel far away from me although I am just beside u next to u and even infront of u maybe u are just too busy to take notice of this small things and I know u are going to get good grades for almost every sub and all I want is just to let me be there to pray for u , accompany u through u A's =)
Holidays is end of this month and I know this Holiday will have lots of training and friendly match for net ball may not have time to really enjoy but is this for me to push myself to the max .......
Anw even other u is far away after weeks and weeks just pass and see u most of the time and even talk to u like what we normally do after whole week u are also different ...
no point saying so much already all I wish is to go back to the past be a stupid idiot who donno anything but is close to the 2 of u really and I think I need to take a break from church and even home

Tired

2009-10-06T03:24:00.001+08:00

I am just tired and i just don't feel like explaining and thank you for letting to skip the explain part anw today maybe be a 50% good day and 50% bad day I am just ok with it thank you =)

My GOODNESS

2009-09-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

Wa Monday reach school 10:10am Thursday reach school 10:30am Best right my Goodness I am gonna die talking to that stupid old man at home btw That Bull Dog Stupid Idiot scold me so late then come u must well don't come I almost shoot him back sia I almost say WHO IS THE STUPID IDIOT SCHOOL THAT TELL ME TO COME TO SCHOOL AND MR ONG ALSO TELL ME TO COME TO SCHOOL WHO THE F******* HELL ARE YOU TO TALK TO ME LIKE THAT EVEN IF U TEACHER SO!
My goodness talking about him ah I wanna slap him face and scold him until he kenna drown my my scolding ah STUPID BULL DOG FREAK HIM LA
End of the story about that FREAKING BULL DOG
Today not that tired cos I have more that enough sleep and I wear slipper to school today no because I not guai don't want to wear shoes is because my feet on the bottom part the skin came out and then is divide into 2 which is deeper one and not so deep one sian la whatever it is I am going to sleep liao tomorrow going to see doctor after joining the cell for lunch then after that join them for dinner
Sat- Band from 9am to 5 but will go off a bit early to go cell but I think I will reach a bit late with the stupid school shirt la ok whatever it is I going to sleep liao HECK CARE LIAO BYE BYE KO MOOD or I will look like this >>> (@>@)
Keep clear PANDA walking .........

One day

2009-09-10T03:49:00.001+08:00

If one day I leave this place how will you think of me just someone who you take care of for 1 year 4months and 19 days maybe that is how you may think but to me everything is different .....
You Guys are the one who take care of me teach me things and this time I realise I may just leave you behinde and never come back this thought just hit me because I choose not to believe that this will bring me away and I know if that time I chose to believe it I might just jump off the building already and no this hope that I am having in the past has gone to a place that no one can find it and I believe all of you can just give up and Even Cons you also can just give up on me cos I am someone that is not worth of all these......
你会不会陪我等下一个天亮？

2009-09-09T13:32:00.000+08:00

如果我放弃了篮球会有什么事会发生？

Links

2009-09-09T04:04:00.001+08:00

Hey People I lost ur link please tag me so that I can link you I am so sorry but I just want some changes and hope that I will not forget to link you guys THANK YOU =)

Hey Jessica I am really sorry

2009-08-24T13:15:00.001+08:00

I just want to say sorry to you hope you won't be angry anymore I know I am too much and I really after that I feel very sorry .
Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry JESSICA
I hope you will forgive me really I am really really very sorry

3 in the morning

2009-08-06T03:19:00.000+08:00

Now is already 3 in the morning and I am not sleeping and also Emi is not sleep because of her work and I feel so boring so I did some drawing and is all about 1 Corintians 13:4-8 because I write it down and also my drawing is ugly but just post the pic of it to see and is not the mahjong paper that is on the mahjong table anyway I will wait till I can sleep so just post it here =) Yesterday was a good day because I went to SHSS to meet shae then went to buy her things then went to T1 and then talk talk and then go cut hair =) I enjoy my day
because I like to spend time with my cell cos all of them are the best =)

Long time no blog liao

2009-07-09T15:49:00.002+08:00

Long time never blog liao cos i fell sick and stuff quite sad cos i fall sick and I am very tired last night i sleep until 3 plus cos I am really very sleepy did not go to school even only have 1 day MC for yesterday only so need to write letter to give Miss Ong I don't know I can go school a not because I really don't feel well if tomorrow I got go to school then I will go study with Constance they all =)

I am really having a very bad cough and the cough cause me to feel worse anyway the head ache that I have is still not leaving me is about 2 week plus le leh I will die sia...

Geok get well soon k?

people who are sick get well soon ah take care =)

I want to go to school tomorrow cos school end early and I don't have CCA =)

I hate cough.....

2009-07-01T01:26:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to my shepherd EMI
You got trick by me haha anyway Hope you like the things that I make and LOVE YOU LOTS AND LOTS =)
Sorry for telling you a white lie today and you didn't see the hint that I gave haha=)
I really want to thank you for being part of my life and also thank you for everything that you have done in my life for this 1 year 2 months and 6 DAys ......
I thank God for you a most cute,pretty and nice shepherd in my life to teach me so many things and even helping me at time and even showing me love =)
Thank you for being there when I need you =)
if you need a shoulder to cry you can call me =)
All I want you to be happy and don't need to worry about your sheep anymore ok( sometime need to worry you can worry la) she is not the dumb dumb 12 year old XiaoJing liao =)
Thank you For taking care of me , spending time with me,talking to me and teaching me things Love you lots and lots =)

2009-06-29T23:08:00.001+08:00

I am in a KO mood and I dont think I can go to school anyway gtg

Difference

2009-06-25T17:44:00.005+08:00

Just now went to eat lunch with daddy and I saw this little girl and somehow I like saw myself in her and I remember when I am young no matter what happen at home I will still smile and I realise a lot of people say I grow up le and I look different because if you see the photo of me last year and now I really change a lot ok....

Don't believe see it yourself

on the top is the how I look last year and the below one is how I look 1 year later

See the difference 1 look fierce 1 look friendly and if you know me last year I am even more bad but now I Guai le... =)

Yesterday was a good day

2009-06-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday the Guys from my LA group went to Mac and study and after a while everyone left and I study alone and I was thinking what if I meet someone from church or school and Paul appear and I call him and he tell me to join him and gang to watch movie =)
Gang=The usual people from the cell don't need to name 1 by 1 =)
After movie went to makan and then went to Paul's house and play Sims 3 again haha and Paul is evil he set fire in the house and then 1 guy die because of the fire is bad is bad is bad right...
Maybe to some of you may not be happy yesterday but be happy today because is a new day that is great so be happy ....
Now in a sian mood no one at home no one to eat dinner with is really sian.......

Things that cannot put down

2009-06-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

Actually I thought I can put things down until Zhe Hao tell me his is now my mum's Godson Now I don't really feel good and I just don't want to know more things about my mum cos she is not my mum everything she do is compare me with her Godson and I will never ever want to see them......
My heart break again and again about it.......

I will go Crazy!!!!

2009-06-19T16:32:00.002+08:00

Can I just don't do the stupid Project it is making me crazy la I need all my group member to be in singapore and now is like 1 week before school start la.....

It Is Driving Me Crazy.........

I am going to be someone crazy.....

Can anyone Tell NGKETIAN to answer my call.............

2009-06-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

I have about 2 to 3 and is up to you which one you want to read I only update this blog more so you can choose lor only for people who know the URL =)

Boot Camp 2009

2009-06-18T20:32:00.001+08:00

I went to Boot Camp and it was great and I really enjoy myself . 1st day God's Peace and Presence and is really after so many months that I didn't really feel God and I really love God to be with me and He also spoke to me and let me see visions on the 1st day and I just wait for the 2nd day to come.2nd day during the boot camp in my heart I say God I cry alone yesterday because I miss mummy like how I miss her when I am younger and now all I long for is more of You and also God help me through a lot of things and I really want to thank God for everything he did in my life and allowing me to feel his peace and presence and I just felt his love when I fall on the ground the 2nd time and I saw a vision and really is very real I saw myself with Jesus on the Bus and He say you are no alone in everything and give everything whole heartly and go out to the nation and tell them about me and I held his hand during the bus ride and I feel the love that he has for us .......
Today was really half died because I am not home for 4 days 3 night although the camp is only 3 days 2 nights but is really super tired lor anyway I really enjoy everything during Boot camp=)

God's Love last forever and no matter what you are facing hold on to God......

4 Days 3 Nights

2009-06-15T15:33:00.004+08:00

Tonight I am going to Jessica's house and stay over so I won't be at home for 4 days 3 nights haha later going out to mummy's house at take money and I will be going to IKEA other place to buy things ...........

I actully pack my thing yesterday in case tonight I am not going to pack and Zhun Zhun I really not coming home tonight so I will blog after my 4 days 3 night camp haha is only me,jerome and jessica 4 days 3 night =)

Fun day =)

2009-06-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to cell from Jessica's house and then after cell went to eat at Bugis and then went to Mac with Paul and Jessica while waiting for Candy I KO at Mac then walk home together with Paul and Candy...

Today wake up super early to go TP bus stop and meet Emi to go to church =)

Saw my aunt and then she talk to Constance for a while and she join us for 30 mins and she left ..... Cell went to Bugis AGAIN and soon City Hall and Bugis is where we going to hang out le....

then go tampines Mac with Jerome to wait for Jessica and then slack at mac for 5 hours and I KO and MAC AGAIN is like the same Mac la.....

Just now Play Basketball with Chocolate,Ice-Cream and Kit Kat......

Then go home and now blogging.......

Tomorrow going to IKEA alone to buy things......

Maybe I going jerome or jessica to stay over then go to church for Boot Camp together.....

Now I have 3 Blogs le can die la.....

Have a fun day for 2 day long time did feel so happy spending time with Cell member......

Out I go not at home

2009-06-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

Out I go and tonight i not at home cos going to stay over at Jessica's house later meeting her at 3:30pm then go Paul's house watch movie then go Jessica's house at next day go to church and today is really a nice day because I won't be at home and I can know jessica more hahahaha.....

Anw Boot camp I am sure I will go because this sunday Ah Ling Gu Gu joining us for service and see how it goes =)

So I go pack my bag and out I go and I am Gone

Great BBQ with Cell

2009-06-11T01:19:00.004+08:00

Just now really have a great time with the cell and also great BBQ and really have fun reach home about 11plus 12=) Today SIMXIAOJING SPEND $25 in 1 day I really must save money le la....

although I still have $20 .........

Spend money on BBQ, Birthday Card for Shaelynna that cost $5.70 and also pen and file that cost about $9 plus $10......

Anw that is not the point......

Have fun during BBQ at Constance's house and we take a lot of photo I think and also play game after food and really have a great time boding with the cell......

Just now on the way back share a bit of thing with Eunice and then reach interchange then take 293 home.......

More sleep

2009-06-10T12:49:00.001+08:00

I really need to sleep Cos I only sleep at 8 AM and now is only 1 pm I will go back and sleep and later out I go so I will post more for the cell BBQ =)

Errors that cannot be seen

2009-06-10T00:41:00.004+08:00

I don't understand why my group mate can copy without looking at the errors.....

Now I am changing the errors for them and now is like 1plus and I have not eat my dinner yet ......

I just need a place where I can study which is Peaceful that all ..........

I cannot even concentrate Now with everything around me which make me distracted I am going to go crazy soon............

There is so many error made la guys will always be guys only some of them like Joshua will look at the errors........

Need to correct the errors and rewrite the LA paper ...................

What should I eat later?

SIAN sia.............

wanna die le la now no mood to even write because at this time I suppose to sleep la ..................

Why must they play Mahjong at this time?

Yingyi you don't want to go to church me and Sing Ming will not force you de even if you don't believe in God anymore I can tell you I will still be your Friend....

Now I have more things to worry and even people to follow up in school and give them bible study.......

I just realise I didn't really spend time with Ahmad and Felicia le.....

Now I really pray that people believe in Christ will not leave and also they will be strong and always remember that God is always there for them and I really need to manage my time and also spend my time with Ahmad and Felicia......

Now I really need to choing my project .....

If not I won't be ready for the next meeting like what happen this week and NGKETIAN you better get ready for the project la if not the whole thing will be delay by you la like what happen today.....

LA thing

2009-06-09T19:43:00.002+08:00

Today i almost late for the LA thing and lucky not only me and that noob .......

today at least I saw 3 guy in my group and even we are not done with the writing part I let them went back early and continue writing at Mac anw I am leader of the group so must do almost everything for the group......

10-4=6 the other 6 guys went overseas and never tell me anw I can tell Miss Loh that They don't need their marks le la.......

I bought a new earphone and it is fun cos i can clip it to my collar and I also can clip the earphones together ......

I also bought 2 new ear studs and is different colour =)

anw tomorrow having BBQ at Constance house so I hope to go and forget about everything =)

This month will be a super busy month for me and also a month that I need to spend a lot of money........

I want to be at a peaceful place......

2009-06-09T00:51:00.003+08:00

Wa just have my dinner and is Mac again haha...

saw Constance and William there and before i even pay my meal and saw them Constance call me and My Phone ring like super loud la then it goes LAO DA dian hua a few time and is like super pai seh la.....

Lucky this ring tone will ring only when Constance and Jason Call me la.....

Emi finally you cleaned your vaio haha =)

Today I have a great day with daddy and I enjoy my lunch with daddy and we had korean food haha =) It is a great lunch with him and he stay at home the whole day playing his Sudoku....

Today I wake up at 4pm I know I am pig la....

I am so tired because don't have enough sleep for the past few day.........

AHHHHHHHHH......................

tomorrow i may be doing the stupid LA thing with 1 guy and is that stupid NOOOOOOBBBB

My day with sure be ruin by HIIIIIMMMMMMM.......

If you want me to choose to die or do the stupid LA thing with him I will sure choose to die better then do the stupid LA thing with him la.........

BTW can anyone go with me please.............

alright I should end here and continue watching my 终极三国 haha....

Strong Foundation

2009-06-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

These Few day emo alone and cry alone never tell anyone what happen ytd i emo behind the curtain that we have at the new church and some how I just cry anw I am not going to talk so much about it change topic today is the first service at the City Church is really awesome and really God have set a Strong Foundation .....

Zone Y2 you Guys made my day great and Ann thank you for listening to me and thank you for talking to me....

Went to eat KFC at City Hall With Felicia , Mandy , Emi,Ann ,Tc and 2 more girls which I forget their names Sorry....

Actully wanted to visit Zi Hui at KK but in the end never because her mum say when she go home le then go visit her and when she call me , Emi & Ann is in the Train to KK .....

Sorry Ann & Emi make you guys waste time ........

I take 65 home and take 1 hour to reach tampines and i am like want to die le cos i want to sleep ........

Yesterday was a emo day for me lor things that I just don't want to share on my blog because is personal =)

2009-06-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

Actually i never drink one la but in the end also drink sian the most I slept for 3 hours only now super tired la cos went jogging with Emi,Eunice,Shaelynna we are the motivated people haha...

Anw i won't post so much about my day because i wanna sleep so see you people tomorrow if can.....

I did not drink haha

2009-06-06T04:09:00.003+08:00

I donno why now is already 4 plus finally i know how to set everything back to the original no one is going to change anything if change the person will die why I say that because 3 ppl know the password for my blog anw i am going to change le =) I also set the time to singapore time le so you people who read my blog know what is the time that I post haha=)

2009-06-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

I hate what mummy say I don't like the feeling like I really try my best to get something for her and she just don't appreciate it but Thank God that he place people around me that appreciate it and I really love the people that he place them in my life thank God that Ann is fine .

Emi how to tell you things that I don't know even how to say sometime there is a lot of thing that is in my heart that I never say .

I should go to my lala land

2009-06-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

I really should go to my lala land forever la wa lao everyday face stupid people and stupid things la I seriously will go crazy.....

Today sms people and invite them to first service at city church =)

Nothing to do at home really very sian la then that idiot boy make my want to slap him arh....

spam me on msn donno how spell die sia that boy .....

He ask me a stupid question sia ask me if I agree with him that our group should go to tampines park to do project a not that i say I must know where the group want to go la then he spam will you agree ? more then 5 time la....

Every morning see one Bcc face then will you enjoy your day no right wa lao at least in my lala land no such things will happen lor....

Alone at home is super sian one don't feel like going home after I go out each time don't know why ..........

I just want to go out.....

What I want to say

2009-06-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

I am alone at home again what mummy say is right someone like me can actually help to be a vice chair man in class the teacher must be blind...Worse thing she ever say is not only this but more like there is a time i told her I was in Chinese class helping teacher to teach my friend you know what she say she actually say your teacher must be stupid if not why you can help her that is not the worse lor I just don't understand why can't she say well done you did a great job or even say something nice like you get Good Conduct Award ok good I will buy you something that you really like and not even a pat on my shoulder.....I don't know why I just feel bad and I hate being her daughter because in her eyes only have her 2 dearest son and without her daughter and no matter what i like she don't even know and she is the one who stop me from play basketball at that time basketball was my everything without basketball I cannot live but she is the one who destroy my dreams .......

Last night

2009-06-04T12:22:00.000+08:00

Last night is super funny la because my uncle say things that are super funny during the ROM things cos They have the ROM thing at KBOX have lots of fun last night and of cos I never drink wine or beer I just take the photo for fun only cos nothing to do ........

Reach home at 12 plus 1 in the morning everyone is drunk la because at 8pm all of they started drinking le after 3/4 hours of cos everyone drunk la.......

My cousin look handsome last night cos he seldom wear so nice one ........

A few more days is the first service in The City Church so people who read my blog please come ok if not i am going to call everyone one by one if not i go door to door ok......

nothing much to post le.......

only photos will update things tomorrow

2009-06-04T01:03:00.000+08:00

2009-06-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

Finally I am going out le and i really expecting that everyone wear until nice nice lor because of them i waste a lot of time to make myself a bit more girl la so after tonight i will be myself again is just that my hair style is different =D

I wish to go to Europe one day =D anyone wanna join pay for you but must wait about 7years la haha=)

So many H1N1 cases in singapore already I really pray that no one will kena H1N1 around me ...

Anw Emi tomorrow your last paper le all the best =D

Shopping with 5 older sec5 jie jie

2009-06-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today was a great day because went out with my cousin Geok and her friends the very nice people and I only know 2 of them which is Gui Mei and Eunice Tang =D

I just remember around me have a lot of Eunice lor =D

The 5 jie jie accompany me go cut hair because tomorrow and went to buy shoe finally I have the shoe that i really wanted to buy long ago and according to Geok almost everything must be girl but change to a bit girl lor so not that bad i like what i am wearing tomorrow =D

show you some photo of the 5 of us =D

*Because one of the jie jie take another bus home so left with us that why left 5 =D

Tomorrow will be a long day I think ....

A few more hours can wear something different le =D

1 more day

2009-06-02T11:10:00.000+08:00

1 more day i can see all my cousin and family members is it a good or a bad thing to me is a bit like a bad thing lor cos all the older generation de will say alot of things de guarantee with the chop on top arh....

Haha anw i think i will be going to post more about my hair cut and alot of things to worry lor so now don't worry first later then go worry.........

if i got the things i need at first I don't even need to buy la hor

got lots of things to do later i go get more rest first I am tired.....

Wednesday here I come=D

2009-06-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

Just now went to Geok's house and pick pretty clothes to wear on Wednesday =D

I think tomorrow will go shopping with my dear sis Geok and Thanks to Garry i can but lots of thing for he's engagement on Wednesday and we are going to go KBOX after the ROM thing =D

I think we will take a lot photo haha =D

I love my family because they love me and they teach me a lot of things =D

Emi I know you will say you see I know you are hiding la ....

anw today have a stupid day which I post about a stupid boy?!I hate noob guys like him and although Ahmad is a bit gay but that stupid boy is worse.... change topic ...

have a get time with Geok and my Grandmother just now love them lots and lots =D

I am now a guai student le so Geok give up la although I know you say it la don't need to say me haha=D

Anw will post more tomorrow about shopping=D although I don't like to shop but once in a donno how many year is can one la....

LOVE THE SIMS!!!(is not the game ok )

i know is =..='''

I think I am going for a hair cut tomorrow and I will miss my hair anw have to cut at the end of the month ma so just cut =D

NGKETIAN YOU ARE A NOBODY

2009-06-01T17:19:00.000+08:00

YOU are just a sucker and I dont even care about u la GAY BOY I hate ppl like u

At least Ahmad is not like you A NOOB you think u are a boy I SIMXIAOJING WILL scared of U wait long long la hor JUST SHUT YOUR FREAKING MOUTH AND GET LOST LET ME SEE U DURING PROJECT I TELL U I will TELL TEACHER THAT U ARE A SUCKER WHO JUST SIT donwn AND SAY PPL I HAVE ENOUGH OF YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU ARE JUST A NOOB SO JUST ADMIT IT!!!!!!!!

SAY ALL THE !@#$%^&!@#$%^!@#$&@#$%^&!@#$%^&*@#$%^&@#$% that you want at me I also have feeling too and today is already not a good day for me and now want to test me COME on!!!!!!

NGKETIAN YOU SUCKER AND NOOB JUST GET LOST AND I CAN TELL YOU WATEVER THING THAT I DO I DONT NEED YOU TO TEACH ME LA HOR

THE GROUP WITHOUT YOU WILL BE BETTER LA.......

I CAN TELL U THAT IN THE 1A TOP 5 ppl who is SUCKS YOU ARE IN THE LIST AND EVEN IF I ON THE LIST ALSO DONT NEED YOU TO WORRY LA

YOU SUCKER FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nice dinner and time studying

2009-05-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

Just now went studying with Ann and Hemi at City hall and after studying went to have dinner at The Soup Spoon =D

Today is another long day and it is our last service at cornerstone and it is great and time really past very fast now is like going to be midnight soon and saw Miss Sim today and today is a 50% happy day and 50% sad day ....

Went Ice cream chef after service with Christopher,Trudy,TimothyChia,Ann and also Hemi have a great time today and All the best for people taking the paper tomorrow like e.g Ann and Emi...

btw Ann I am not auntie because I keep receipts in case I forget the date because dates are really important =)

Daddy is drunk again anw he is not noise so i think i should sleep on sofa in case he slap me when i am sleeping and in a mode where he also don't know ....

Eunice You PSK never sms me lor then i wake up just for nothing la....

the second week of this month I will a bit busy for project during week days of course........

only take a few photo anw better than don't have any........

Frisbee

2009-05-31T04:05:00.000+08:00

Went to Frisbee early in the morning and i am tired when i reach church and we score straight zeros all the schools are strong and at the last game everyone don't have the mood to play because one of my senior lost her wallet......

I kena sun burn !!!!

Just now some of us went to KFC for dinner after dinner they write cards and I study I stuck at all the question in the comprehension and a lot of thing just suddenly make me cannot concentrate and Ann thanks for teaching me and talking to me when everyone just never talk to me and I was doing homework at a corner....

Actually I just forget what my mom says and wanted to move on but just now Eunice said the same thing as my mom and emo for a while and really think why the two of them can really say the same things and is 100% the same.....

YAY!!!! is holidays already 1month yes !!!!!!

Long 1 hour talk

2009-05-29T18:18:00.000+08:00

Just now meet the parents session Mr Ong and my Mum talk for 1Hour is not 10 mins but it is 1hour can't believe that they have so many things to talk about me and it is like two of them tag team and first time Mr Ong use 3 language to talk to me.....

Poor Me right a teacher and a mother talking in front of the child and the mother actually don't believe that her child is able to be a Good Conduct Award winner and the mother ask is it true....

Anyway tomorrow need to wake up early to go to the frisbee thing so tonight I think I will sleep early ....

Conflict Kills

2009-05-29T01:24:00.000+08:00

Just finish the summary about the conflict that the Hutu and the Tutsis have and really i saw the number of people die because of this conflict my heart breaks....

The number of people die because of this conflict is about 1 million and you want to know more go and see the movie Hotel Rwanda .....

although is a movie but it happen before of course not in Singapore=D

I really thank God that he place me in a country which have peace and harmony .....

God really bless me through out this week and what award I get what Prize i get for the competition it is all for Him....

A bit stress before the competition because I long time never play frisbee le and I am the youngest in the whole team because my senior in NPCC select me to go ya.....

Tomorrow last day of school le must enjoy my day even though I need to stay in school until 6plus ....

Saturday need to go to school in the morning to meet is like another school day is just that it is weekend....

now is about 2 am le need to sleep if not cannot wake up for school Good night people....

2009-05-28T14:45:00.001+08:00

28052009

YAY!!!!

Tomorrow after NPCC and everything it will be holidays hahaha For people having their paper all the best =D

These few days in school i am emo la it is not because people backstab is just about thing have came to me la ya so no need to worry about anything le la it is going to be holiday soon so relax haha=D

Just now I saw Wan Sin she is now in bedok noth secondary and really she never really change ...

reach home at 3 plus and i use computer for a while then KO on sofa again these few day I come to a point where i lie down on the sofa and I just sleep super right I think tonight will have mahjong session ....

Will blog later=D

2009-05-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

feel alone although daddy is at home and not playing mahjong for once I feel the peace at home Daddy is busy playing his Sudoku and I am using computer and Ketian is really a idiot for once.....

Ahmad thanks for the idiot comment in facebook....

Long time never eat together with dad le .....

The last time I eat with him and talk to him nicely is like super long ago because the two of us actually will never stay at home for each other ...

Dinner was great although is just maggie mee and daddy never talk much and I am the one who cook the maggie mee and is nice no time never eat the curry flavour de =)

Emi All the best and don't stress ok?

Ann everything will be fine and you are important to us really...

I think this Friday Mummy is going to kill me anyway no worries if she take the chopper only I call the police..... =D

Great day

2009-05-27T16:13:00.000+08:00

Today is a day full of good news and I am quite happy ...

1) I am getting Good Conduct Award

2)I am select to go to the Frisbee competition for this coming Saturday

I should be super happy because I am the 1 and only junior for frisbee and a super happy thing is my class have 17 people getting the Good Conduct Award =D

6/5 gathering is really soon I think and it will not be on weekend haha....

No one can stop me to go to cell and also service even after cell or service my time is never spend with other people but my cell and also Emi=D

I think i am going to work again but I just don't want to go but sad is a must to go because of the stupid ware house sales and all the CD is sell at a super cheap price and the cheapest is $1....

I just know that from today onwards everyday must wear the NPCC badges is like Wa Lao....

I am going to play Star Craft until 7 haha and not is 4 plus is about 3hrs haha

anw will post later......

At work...

2009-05-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today never go to school but went to work and I never wake up early to go work of cos i wake up at 3 plus in the afternoon because I really don't have enough sleep as everyone know I will never have enough sleep la....

Now is like about 11 plus 12 I think 1 plus then will reach home I really don't feel like going to school but I need to go so see how it goes post more later when i reach home...

2009-05-25T19:42:00.001+08:00

Nothing much to post today ....

As usual today never go to school....

Tomorrow I think I am going because have the NPCC day thing.....

Actually today i wake up on time is just because I have head ache because recently have enough sleep ......

Stay at home is super sian la....

I just need to sleep la please....

Badminton

2009-05-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today I wake up at 8 and went to bath and pack for badminton and really I love the time ya maybe because last time we seldom spend time together to like play badminton ya...

I am really Happy that God place me in this journey that is coming up in 10 years time although is a bit long but for me I think is enough for me to really prepare and do something in China...

Today I am tired because morning play Badminton afternoon went for service just now went to play basketball today is really a long day lor...

Soon I think I will become a bit smaller in size so I must go play sports every week and even after NPCC like don't know how long ago with Ann & TC ya really love to spend time with Emi,Ann,Trudy,Chris&TC....

Today God really let me see a vision that I saw before Andy went to China and is almost the same but this time round the person is me and God really let me know clearly that no matter what 10 years later I will go to China to do great things.....

No matter How young I maybe now but I can do great things for God I know things will not going to be easy for me but I know that God is always with me ......

Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

This is really what God place in my heart that time and I know that no matter what God is always there....

God has place me in the church and even in the cell for a reason and even I just don't like my school or class I know that God place me there has a reason .....

Now is like a habit for me to really post on my blog some times I can have at least post1 sometimes 2post.....

Emi thanks for really talking to me sometimes and thank you for spending time with me and love you lots and lots

Ann thanks for talking to me too and thanks for spending time with me sometimes and also love you lots and lots

Tc thanks although I know I don't need to thank you but really I don't hate you and i also don't love you haha

Chris I really want to say thank you for really being a older brother to teach me things =D

Trudy thank you for being someone there if I really don't know who to talk to =D

You guys are the best...

Inside Look

2009-05-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today wake up at 9 because need to go mummy's place and get my stuff and go to 50Mac to help out I reach early and I am not late haha but the people suppose to help late ....

Just now I responded to God and really I need to have a new beginning.....

After everything in church went to Bugis with Emi and Ann went there walk walk and talk today I am tired ok not that I am emo because i am tired that why I don't want to talk although I look emo....

Have too much things happening at once I really almost run away from everything even I don't post on what happen is because things are not over yet so ya....

I cannot really find support in school although there is people from zone6 and i am really very far away from them le so no point talking about them ya....

I need to sleep!!!!

Can anyone just talk to me on MSN......

Super sianzzz.......

Nothing to do just know that I only take 5 pic only Wa lao....... sianzzzz

事情还没有结束但觉得一定永远不会结束的.....

I hate ball sometimes

2009-05-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

I really hate ball sometime why must they always hit my face today during PE I actually can take the ball thanks to sherilyn push the ball in the end the ball hit my face la thanks hor noes bleed for very long sia ....

Just now NPCC all the sec1 of cos and me receive the NPCC badge =D

Super tired today because of NPCC la ... now my shoulder pain until like what sia.....

Ya btw you people who read my blog can post comment even if you don't have a account in blogger =D

Long pants

2009-05-22T12:05:00.000+08:00

Now I am still in school ya and that Mrs Guru is so nice bring us to computer lab but no one likes her so too bad...
The frist to period of the day is PE and I wear the long pants for PE and is like super weird lor...
Wa lao the school computer is super lag.....
I am going to go siao soon lor...
Today is a nice day because teacher bring us to computer lab and Maths teacher is not here haha and today I know the over all result for SA1 I am the 3rd last in class and I only pass 4 subject but the good thing is in the level I am 90 in position but I know if I tell daddy and mummy about it they will kill me man but I know I try very best for my exams....
Later have NPCC so i have to stay until 6 plus 7 sian la....

2009-05-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today everyone ask me a lot of question and I just don't know how to answer them like how are your parents and stuff and Miss Ong tell me to ask my parents to go to school but really I never ask them because I am so sort of like don't like it when people talk about parents I will just shut up now I really come to a point when people talking about their parents I will walk away ......

Daddy God can you just help me to go through everything at once because I am tired to face all the thing even now at my dad's house I still struggle with a lot of thing even today I take my MT paper home I am still scared and in class I almost cry because I really know that I can score 99/100 but I score only 92 and dad I love you and Daddy God thank you for blessing me through out the exams .....

Daddy thanks for really encouraging me after so long I really did not hear you have done a great job ...

Thank you love you lots and lots even if you everyday bring friends to play Mahjong until I cannot sleep it is ok ......

Just tell my mum about my result ofr my MT not even a well done anw I am use to it le again today I post 2 times.....

I know I am alway not good enough as a daughter , A student and A sheep....

I know that I am alway not good enough as a younger sister

I know that I am alway not good enough as a vice-chairman

I know that I am alway not enough as a grand daughter .....

I know that I am alway not good enough but I will always try my best ......

I love you guys and You guys are really always important to me and no matter what happen and even you want to go eat together just call me unless like today reach home then to tired then sleep until like 10 plus....

Now is already 11:20pm of cos i have not eat Dinner ....

Eating Mac later is better then no food to eat...

夜晚对我而言是很漫长的可是今天不一样......

E-mail

2009-05-21T17:08:00.000+08:00

Hey you know what I receive 2 email about Siew Ling and I know already and I think the person who the me the email is super bo liao and I am so up sad about it le then try to forget but all the emails remind me about lt...... 3 days passes and God thank you for bringing me through things like what happen to Siew Ling and I hope that Rachel is ok and I know that God will bring her through ......

Today went fort canning with the class and walk the whole of 1 hour and going for place to place anw today is another day which is tired because today actually can go home at 1 but i ended up reaching home at 5 wa lao can die la last night KO on sofa la and today still go the drill for Tuesday because we have NPCC Day ......

Tomorrow have NPCC can anyone just jio me out and go walk walk cos I really want to relax on Friday la.....

I took back my MT paper le I am happy but I am still discourage about what mum said so I never tell her of cos now still at daddy's house so must enjoy haha.....

I know you are tired and you need a hug tell me and you want to cry I will lent you my shoulder and always remember that your sheep is always here...

God please bring people who face problems at home and school ......

Dinner

2009-05-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

Dinner today is best at least I am not alone having dinner and I really have photos to post haha....

Dear K.A and Emi thank for the dinner that we have just now it is really the best dinner I ever have hahaha ......

Last Night totally never sleep and I am so tired but i never sleep in case I never go to school again Bad mood in school today because of the chairman and some of the people in class ......

Totally Pissed out by them sia and I shout at them at say somethings that I should not say anyway this saturday is the City church's Inside look.....

It is going to start at 5pm and soon We are going over once the next month start we are the Citizens hahahaha =D

School

2009-05-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

Today I never go school again because I am drunk for some reason and never wake up for school is already the second day I never go to school le almost get chase out again but I just don't care lor....

i just cannot forget everything within these few days can i just have more time to face everything my souls is lost in direction again...

I just cannot believe that half a year just pass i use to feel every day pass super slow but this year is really a year that pass very fast......

today I went out after everyone went out and I know who is the one i can reach out to but I know that without God I am nothing and I share with Joel Goh all the things i have gone through although he won't understand but I know if I don't dare to talk to Emi and people from my cell i will tell him but I just don't know does he really know what I want to tell him....

Stress stress stress stress tomorrow if I don't go to school I will be kill le la eating maggie again everyday the same thing but I know why i am happy to eat maggie everyday ....

我已经放弃了和我已经失去了方向......

你是不是在生我的气??

不要再生起了好不好 please.....

2009-05-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

Just now sherilyn msg me and tell me

Ouh ya MT you highest in class 91/92

and I was really stun although I should be happy but I am not.....

I really miss my grandfather....

Everytime I get my result I will think about him and I am very scared to fail him....

but I am always never scared that my MT will fail but these few days everything in my life and even every person in my life I am really scared I will make the wrong choices and even I am scared that they will get hurt and even they will leave me alone like that time my family no one even know what I like how I feel and even what is happing in my school and even where I am ....

I really don't like to be alone but sometimes I will just emo alone.....

I miss you even you are not around me anymore but I am always the xiao jing that you teach , love and talk to .....

眼泪一滴一滴的流弹是会不会有人察觉？

2009-05-18T17:33:00.000+08:00

我真的需要有人陪的时候有没有人会在我的身旁？

I don't really want to stay at home i really just need someone to go some where to really help me to forget all this things.....

Today I never go to school because I just don't want to go back to school .......

I think this week will really end bad because there is a lot of things that come to me and I am really very tired about thing that happen this few weeks and really I can't really handle all the things and is not because of the thing that are happening but the things that i am tired is really the stupid cancer thing and i am really scared that one day I will be like my senior to leave people that love me or people who guide me....

Yesterday during P&W i also ask God to really give me more time to spend will all of my friends because I don't want the same thing to happen how i wish my senior will know God and even still be on earth....

I just need a break and I really need to have time to forget all this things.....

What I am scared...

2009-05-17T23:38:00.001+08:00

Am I scared to die and i can tell you is because of there is people on earth that I will miss.Today Rachel tell me a bad news and it is really a very bad news to me and my heart breaks after she told me that my junyuan senior pass away and I really cry after i join the cell for food and she is just 1 year older then me maybe my friend feel super happy but my heart really breaks and during P&W today I really break down and cry ....

Emi,Constance,Eunice & Taferine thanks for talking to me and really constance thanks for talking to me at the basketball court as well as gerard lee for trying to make me smile and really thanks for praying for me also Constance you are really the super bell cell leader ya and thanks arh...

Emi Ng , Timothy Chia Zun Yi & Tan Zhi Kai for going back and PS me at katong I look fora while and at that time i am like shock but you all did not know I am going Tampines also right in the end i take 2 bus sian anw if you all never PS me I also won't see Ann to help her to at least upload 4 photo and i won't be angry one la is just that I really super bo liao nothing to do ....

打篮球到地对我来说是什么？

Do you scared that you will die?

I can tell you I am really tired about everything is going on in my life but I know I still have to do a lot of thing and I just need to get busy to forget about everything....

Set My feet on the and set my mind on thing above.........

Long Day

2009-05-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

Today is really a long day to me cos I am really very tired and today i just don't feel right in everything i do ....

Emi thank you for your E-mail

Eunice thank you for your sms

now I am drinking beer but it is root beer not tiger beer =D

On the bus to go home just now with Jerome, Jessica ,Eunice, Vivien ,SJ & Adora and SJ thanks for all the cold joke and it is like super cold la and jessica thanks for asking SJ to tell more cold jokes I think i must update my jokes so that everyone will feel very cold if not they will be very warm under the sun so please wait for me to really update =D

Zone Y rocks today the service we are talking about Vision and the game we play today is super fun and we took some photo which is funny and some photo when we are on the way to the new church

2009-05-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

God I am rally sorry and things that i have done i promise not to do it again but in the end I never even stop myself from the stupid beer and the stupid cigarettes I am really not worth to be a person who follow Christ I just cannot forgive my self even Emi forgive me and i stop myself for 3 times but why I did not even stop myself from the 4th time........

Emi I am really sorry

I am really very sorry and I am really very tired about all these things ........

2009-05-15T16:38:00.000+08:00

Sorry that I fail you guys again just don't ask me why but really I am really sorry and I just want the things in my life to get lost but things that will never get lost is the past.....

"人们是可以支配自己的命运若我们受至于人那错不再命运而在我们自己"

2009-05-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

一定要过得开心因为每一天都是美好的一天也是神赐我们美好的一天.....

如果真的有一天我先离开你会不会为我哭？

如果这一天真的来了你可不可以答应我不要为我哭因为我根本不值得你为我哭.........

我真得很希望你能答应我的要求.......

但是你一定不知道我说的就是你......

SHOUTING

2009-05-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

I really don't want to shout at my mum But the way she talk to me is like my friend disrespect me and shout at me for nothing!!!!!!!!

WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!

I really want to Stop thinking about it le la then call call call think what I RUN AWAY FROM HOME ARH!!!!!

What think that my mum SO WAT !!!!!!!!

Today I should be happy and not shouting infront of Constance and some other people from my Zone and this SHOULD NOT even happen la and stupid Computer I hate everything that really make me angry la !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE IT LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not In a good mode GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GET OUT OF MY WORLD FOREVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HATE BEING SICK JUST GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday To Joshua

Happy Birthday to Candy&Derek

Later going out to have dinner with the cell but I don't think everyone will go anyway I will go out early to get them something so off I go bb....

Can sms me or call me if you want to hear my voice but I think is no a good choice to call me.......

Ann , Emi , TimothyChia and of cos Constance

2009-05-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

Thank you Ann for playing Basketball with me on 03122008 of cos i also want to thank you for teching me thing and I won't forget when we were playing you say you are noob but really you are not noob at all is true! Thank you for letting me going to your house to stayover and I really have a lot of first time with you as well as 4.5......

e.g Spend money on starbucks , staying over at friends house etc etc etc...

Thank you Emi for giving me bible study and thank you for being there for me although I know sometimes you will shut down and I will never forget the day I know Christ and you are the one who tell me more about Christ on 20042008 and thank you for being one of the person who help me to change....

Thank you TimothyChia for being the one who can make me go crazy and thank you for being the older brother who I can play soccer with and really Stop the WALAO-ING & also stop suaning My Shepperd le can !

Thank you Constance for being the one who really theach me more about Christ and even being a Super nice Cell leader who treat me and joshua and rally thank for the bible study that day and I am really super happy that God place you ,TC,Emi and Ann in my life...

I am saying the thank you because I really one to say but don't know how and also because I am boring because I don't need to go school for the nexts 5 day even if my class mate need to go for to school for the next 2 day I also don't because of the MC that the Doctor gave last night...

Now I am super bored le la...

Super Weak Day

2009-05-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

I just reach home from the Clinic and the doctor gave me 3days MC cos I am having fever i know I should rest but I just can't fall asleep and I feel so sad cos i just cannot talk even if I talk No one will understand what I want to say unless I speak louder and clearer ......

This Saturday need to go and see doctor again because he say need to check if it is ok....

Photos

2009-05-11T15:30:00.000+08:00

Emi your shop is really so cool man! and I think the cake is super nice if not no people will buy le haha=D

Funny!!

2009-05-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

Lets experienced a "lijuan moment". What are city church people called?

You go think first then sms me the answer or you can post a comment hehe....

Today super tired la because I went to play basket ball with church people near Eunice's house then after all the games we play is like super tired la than walk home from there since my dad's house is super near and today is really a super funny day but I just don't know how to explain my feeling ......

Ya before I go play basketball I went to parkway with constance,Lijuan and adora that is why we have the lijuan moment come and is like super cold one la.....

and today paise and worship i feel super sad because I sprain my neck and only constance ,adora and lijuan know cos they found out after that......

2009-05-09T09:44:00.000+08:00

This few week is really a very and super dry week and no matter what I do is really very wrong and Mum have been nagging and really I feel very discourage and no matter what I do somehow all the things she say come to me and I will think think and think is it the right decision although I know is right but I will keep thinking .

Today I am going to cell but I don't know am I really going there for playing or going there for bonding I don't really understand what I am doing and even thinking ....

I really feel super stress and in class everything i do is wrong the decision that I make is also wrong ......

I have come to this point that I just want to do everything on my own and I know that this should not be the way and I really want some changes and I don't really find support in school even my school have many christian that i know and in school when I face something I don't really feel like sharing and to my cell I still have a lot of things that I never share and in 1A I have sherilyn as a older one and more mature in Christ I just don't know who to turn to even she is there for me......

Anyway I am not going to think so much about it already and this coming is full of holiday hahahahahaha=D if Wednesday and Thursday then this week i only go school 1 day only need to wait for Miss Ong to confirm with 1A on Tuesday and I am really looking forward to this coming week which is full of holidays!!!!

Mahjong

2009-05-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

Just finish playing Mahjong with daddy and his friend now is already 11:07pm le la hope that I can wake up on time to meet them and done with my packing ...

Just is like siao la play about 24 rounds and now having headache thanks for giving headache man I should have reject the offer playing Mahjong with them Sianzz Although a lot of people online but no one talk to me and tomorrow need to wake up at 9 just to pack hope that i can wake up and sleep on my sofa and anyone wanna play mahjong together at my house and I will supply drinks only about 5 to 8 people can come I don't really mind yup.. now eating my dinner and going to sleep on my sofa and good nite everyone and see you guys tomorrow .......

I am back

2009-05-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

Today i have my chinese paper2 it is so easy la and of course my maths paper 2 which is ok ok only and finally I am back to Daddy's place love this place because it is more tidy and can play Majong anytime wanna play I don't really mind but cannot play until too late and I really love my sofa that i use to sleep when I was chase out but i got way to get in to sleep so it is really a time that make me really think more and Constance I really want to thank you for offering me to go your house and somehow I learn a lot thing through I was throw out of house and I don't want it to happen again and yesterday mummy have been very bad to me said all the thing that make me stress even more but I never listen and today I am at daddy's place and I will stay till next week if after exam don't need to go school and thank God that I have my Ah ling 姑姑 who is the one teaching me thing and through her God also teach me a lot of thing Ah ling 姑姑 when will you be free to come my church? By the time you come I have already move to the new church plant le the starting of next month we will be at the city church I think and I am so excited about what God is going to do in our church and hope that Ann will be fine and Emi too anyway I going for cell tomorrow don't need to go out with mummy anymore my saturday is now for my daddy and I promise him every friday to sunday I will stay at his house so i think i will going for cell for the whole of this month and next month hopefully I won't get chase out of house again and again .....

每天都是新的一天我们一定要过得高高兴兴的过不要因为一些事而乱想。。。。。

2009-05-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

難以忘記初次見你

一雙迷人的眼睛

在我腦海裏　你的身影　揮散不去

握你的雙手感覺你的溫柔

真的有點透不過氣

你的天真　我想珍惜

看到你受委屈　我會傷心

只怕我自己會愛上你

不敢讓自己靠得太近

怕我沒什麼能夠給你

愛你也需要很大的勇氣

只怕我自己會愛上你

也許有天會情不自禁

想念只讓自己苦了自己

愛上你是我情非得已

什麼原因　我竟然又會遇見你

我真的真的不願意

就這樣陷入愛的陷阱

愛上你是我情非得已

I listen to this song almost everyday and I saw all the happy time that I have with all of you and I am really thankful for all the time that you guys spend with me I really thank you for the happy thing that happen and even like this year my birthday I did not really expect for a present and you guys remember my Birthday and I really never forget my 13th Birthday

I really want to thank God for putting all of you in my life especially Emi , Taferine , Constance , Ann , Trudy , Christopher , TC , ZC , Jason and lot and lots of people ......

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2009-05-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

7May2008

If you really don't want me just need to tell me stop nagging tomorrow I won't come back I don't need you ya I also should not sms constance that I am going to celebrate your birthday on Saturday and no matter what you want me to do I Am NOT GOING TO DO YOU THINK WHAT YOU MY MOTHER SO WHAT!

Whatever I do is wrong de la today never do anything wrong and i do what you tell me in the end I am the one get scolded I HATE you !!!!!!!

I only want daddy I don't want you anymore and I don't even want to see your stupid idiot face.......

I just want my cell my daddy my ah ling 姑姑 not you I don't want to stay with you anymore.... I have enough of you!!!!!

You have cross the line like what they do I will never let go of the hate anymore......!!!!!!!

Today I just alone again and I am really going to be mad le scolding and even more scolding just because you are sick i don't want to make you more angry then I shut up it does not mean you can scold me until like what......

Who is the one who make me give up basketball who is the one who make me like a little kid and who is the one who make me give up so many thing now I really feel so stress at home I don't like it I really hate the feeling !

nothing more to post le because it is all the angry thing that I don't want to say

SIM XIAO JING is going to shut up for now......

为什么你不和我讲？

不要紧只要你记得你不会是一个人独自面对全部的东西因为我会陪你一起渡过.......

All I need is you to give me peace and allow me to control my anger....

I will never forget

2009-05-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

i will never forget what they do to me and this will never end until they say sorry no matter what who slap me I will not forget and i will always remember until i get to do something if not I am not Sim Xiao Jing I mean what I say no one is going to stop me.......

I am who I am no one like you atiqah cannot stop what i want to do cos is my hands and legs...

If you really want to control me can wait long long lor cos i am not dog and you are just a nobody but a Chairman in class and no one in class really cares about you de la hor so just shut your stupid mouth ......

I don't care about any teacher and what is going to happen to me is none of your problem only know how to help people only don't know what happen just stand a side and see first......

I promise you I wont do anything to them but if they cross the line they will know the real me ....

2009-05-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Taferine and Jessica!!!!

today we went pizza hut and celebrate Taf and Jess 's Birthday before that meet taf at tampine mall to eat and then went libary to study and today is another wonderful day I have reach home late today but not going to tell you what time hehe.....

A few more days to mum de birthday le but she is sick too bad I dont think we are going to celebrate .....

Today went home and have a long talk with my dad and it is so funny because today my dad talk to me about handphone and I am really talking to him nicely and it is so funny that my dad 's handphone is just fix but he drop it on the floor la and I laugh at him and I really have a very wonderful day and I really want to thank God for today yup going to sleep le good nite....

The day which is sucks

2009-05-04T21:23:00.001+08:00

Today is really a day which is suck is not because of the exam is because of my stupid classmate especially that stupid Chairman , Aaron de girl friend and that stupid Hasvinjit tomorrow all the 3 of you will sure get it from me I will never let you all go

and Hasvinjit who do you think you can scold me a busted and I tell you what I will do i will do too bad for you cos you have already cross the line that you should not cross

Tomorrow don't blame me for what I do ......

Study Day

2009-05-04T14:44:00.000+08:00

Today was a study day for almost everyone and 4.345 meet at subway for lunch and is shiok la and after service Ann , Emi , TC , ZK and I went to T2 and we go BK and then go Starbucks and go to the viewing gallery to study and Emi is so irritated by ZK that she open her bottles cap and splash water at ZK and too bad la make Emi angry the consequences is get splash .......

After TC and ZK left the 3 of us Ann,Emi and I continue studying after all of us finish studying we went to walk around Crowne plaza hotel and went to cheers and buy cup noodles and went to food court......

Reach home about 10 plus and Thanks to TC I learn the wa lao-ing from him and is really 7 out of 10 sentence that I say have wa lao thank you TC.......

Remove your Mask

2009-05-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today our cell did something really very different there no sharing but praying and Ann you are really one of the most important person in my walk with god and no matter what always remember I am always free to talk to also although I cannot help you but at least to let you know that i am also there and Also Emi thanks for praying for me almost every week and Guys I really want to thank all of you because all of you are really the ones who is there to guide me =D

Eunice thank you for listing to me and thank you for talking to me although you never go through before...

Today the cell is praying for each other expect for me cos through out everything i am really crying and sharing with Eunice and never pray for people at least at prayer meeting I Pray hor so ya is the first time i really pray out loud 2 time 1 is praying for offering's other one is prayer for the new church plant.....

A tired day will never make me go away from what I am trying to achieve and no matter what is going to happen to me I will never want anyone of them to be sad but be Happy and face the problem

Although I share with Eunice but the burden in me is still very heavy la

Dry Dry Dry can you just get out of my life for now and I just don't know should I share with someone if my burdens is still so heavy ?????

Aiya Why did my dear mr Jordan Ho come wa lao tomorrow still meeting the cell la if he come I will spend my night PSP lor Sianz......

Like what Chua say just remove the mask if you are facing thing don't like act to be alright

ya and I know if you don't share it will be worse

May Day

2009-05-02T08:40:00.000+08:00

Thursday went to Ann's house to stay over and we eat ice-cream together and I just slack at her house =D Yesterday Ann and I almost late for the run Cornerstone lucky her Dad drive us to bedok reservoir in the end the event also never start on time =)

Thank you for talking to me it really somehow help me a bit because I feel a bit useless that is how i feel ........

After eat with ZK,TC,Chris and Emi i join eunice they all go to the new church to find the place to eat then is like i know all the places because the church is super near my house la next time can save money on transport hahahaha =)

Play basketball with Terry's cell we went eat and drink and our table is really full of food but i only can finish my food not what the rest order =)

Lucky i mange to find the way home if not i will really will like go i big round to go home......

Now is just 9 plus is like still early for cell lor last night i study until half way I KO on the floor wa if mum is at home she will kill me la ...... Later meeting the cell at 1 and cell start at 2 i think so the 1 hour i will just study PLZ I NEED TO RELAX SOON IF NOT WILL BE THE 1ST GIRL TO BE CRAZY FOR HISTORY , ENGLISH AND LITERATURE

I just need to relax by playing basketball if not i will siao......

2009-04-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

I feel so useless that I have not start to achive it i have already give up already....
I promise that I will become a Basketball player in front of my grandfather and I also promise him I will study but I realise that I never even try I already want to give up and now the thing I want is really may or may not happen e.g I just want everyone in cell just stay happy no matter what is going to happen and even the '斗志' in me is disapper into don't know where......
How I wish someone will just jio me out to go talk , eat , and watch movie I know that is not going to happen so i should just go eat alone and watch movie alone ........

2009-04-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

Term2 week 7 & 8 will be the most depressed lor but now i don't really feel the stress yet cos is like now I really learning how to relax and really I feel that i am really very different in the way I talk to my friends cos in primary school after I receive Christ I never really use Class languages but in secondary school I really become worse I really need changes in my life cos i really feel that the relationship with God I am so far from it and I will never go toward to him like how I feel his presence in the past but now I am like i don't even feel him again and the i really don't like the feeling and I really feel very bad and stuff I just don't know can i really stand so firm in God and I am really sorry to you guys and God ):
This morning in tampines interchange I met Chris seldom have the chance to see cell member on the way to school......
God I really want to see Joshua to come back to church like last time you show me something that make me promise you to continue my walk with you.......
The person who bring me to church is just getting far away from God that is not really what I want to see and he is not the first one to leave me but the fourth one ......
Guan Jun , Desmond , Joshua and Marissa although they are not in church but what I have promise I will do cos Action speaks louder than words and no matter how far I am from you I will still be in church that is my promise and no one change my mind no matter what they do like don't let me go to church I will still go like What i do to let them allow me to go to church.....

Worry

2009-04-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

Today I am just so worry about my health and a lot of thing e.g Exams & a lot of things just don't know how to say it...

My mum is now really more like a crazy person whatever she want to say something before she say she will shoot me first just don't know what is she thinking .

Anw I don't even care about what she say ........

Why she won't let me go to hospital to have a check up and the chest pain get worse and today after i take my pain killer it is like the pain is very horrible and is like there is fire burning......

Don't like the pain.....

Ytd actually i also have the pain through out the day I just don't dare to say and really I think this is me ........

God i really want to thank you for giving me today........

Hope to pass my Chinese test well like can score 40plus over 50.....

The Queen cake I make today really look KNS so sad actually it should be nice.....

2009-04-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

Last week is like totally dry because a lot of things happen make me stress and dry up .......
I really want to thank Emi because she is always there for me and really in my cell people who I am close too is really very little la e.g Emi,Constance,Ann,Joshua and mostly they are from the old 4.5 lor......
Just now after playing basketball with Chua , Terry , Constance and lot of people from conerstone went to eat with Ann ya and is only the two of us ......
I really enjoy my time talking to Ann although she is older then me like Emi and Constance...
I really want to thank Ann also because always like that time we play basketball together last year and hanging out with her sometime I really enjoy my talk with her also.....
Looking forward to the coming week because only need to study for 4 days YAY!!!
Maybe meeting Taferine tomorrow and maybe meeting Ann on Wednesday / Thursday Yup (=

Again

2009-04-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

There she go again......
Nagging is all she do everyday....
Why she just cannot shut her stupid mouth.....
What a Bad week I have is like no matter how good i do my thing to show it is just like nothing to my mum....
What a week which is so stressful and stupid week i have but I will still Hang in there Yup =)

Sian arh......

2009-04-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

Today is another very sian and stupid day i even had because this morning Mum whack me just to wake me up and is really very painful just because i too tired and i just continue with my sleep then i get whack WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH MY MUM???????
7 hours have past but the pain is still there I really feel so sick le then now even more weak so sian today never go cell again......
why I cannot go to cell Stupid mum everything I do is wrong then whatever i do she thinks that i am change I really don't know what is she thinking lor......
Can All the pain and sickness in me just get lost!!!!!!!!

Weak

2009-04-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

Why am I so weak in almost everything and why I am always not good enough to my mum ????
Today I just feel so weak and even in studies and in everything .......
Why am i always not good enough to my mum??????
Why is it that i am so weak?????
I just feel so useless and whatever I do I just to archive something ...........
Why she scold me like I can chose to be sick or not ?????
Why can't she just treat me better????
Why can't I just go off since she want me to get lost????
Don't understand what is she thinking.........

2009-04-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

Love the Cell lots and lots =D...........
Today almost die in school because of asthma attack and chest pain just now in school i almost collapse sad right and then go home mum shooting me say you play some more la is like i never even play lor my Mum is SIAO de la then i was trying to rest she is there nagging and scolding none stop i just have it and that stupid mummy that i have got nag from for almost 2 hours and I don't really have the energy to tell her to shut up............
Going to rest le maybe will update my blog later......

NO title again...

2009-04-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

Today I am still having my count down cos the cornerstone run is just next week and after that i will have my exams le after exam i tell you i will sure slack de cos i choing to study even i never go to school what a day with all the stupid pain and now is about 9plus 10 le i am still not tired i just hope that i wont be late tomorrow if not need to jog around the stupid field tomorrow may be a good day cos i can skip lesson hahahaha cos of the EV interview YES!!!!! Although I don't like it but i think is a good thing .........
It is Bad Bad Bad can the laziness in me get lost cos i tomorrow school end early and no bible study and NPCC.....
No NPCC is good!!!!
No Bible study is BAD!!!!!!
Have science tomorrow anw I don't need to bring my book for science even have two period of science....... that why my bag is always so light hahahaha.........
Math book is always heavy but nvm every Friday my bag will still be light in fact is everyday my bag is light hahaha.........
Good night Mum will be nagging if i still don't sleep good night(=

2009-04-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hate the Pain that i have at one of the rib cage bone is so painful and i have difficultly breathing what a sad thing i face starting of the day today never go school and go doctor myself again hate to go alone but i don't think any one will go with me aiya if i go to school today everyone Will quarrels why can't my class have the peace sia no matter what i do to stop it they will say i side the person na bei hate it sia all the CB thing why must they happen to my classmate and me........
In the primary 6/5 that i am in i don't face these thing but in this stupid 1A i face all the stupid idoit ******* thing...................
why can't they just get lost

Finally

2009-04-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

Finally I finish Copying history chapter7 pages 108-113 and I am so tired now the teacher SIAO de lor anyhow scold people then tell people copy and in my life no teacher tell me to copy anything for textbook before he is the first one lor......
Think what teacher so what do you think I care about him of cos never la if yes i already do everything he tell the class to do i will do de lor the Basket make us submit the paper tomorrow one day need to copy alot so many thing then tomorrow still need to stay back because of the interview coming soon i think is just next week and soon Exams come in just 1 to 2 weeks I just feel so stress in school still need to give bible study to class mate wa more and more things is going to crush me le la......
Tomorrow still have to do my duty wa why is there so many thing and I just need my sleep because everyday I just don't have enough sleep hate to wake up At 5 tomorrow i think i will be late again if i will be late i will just go back home and have my sleep better......
Stupid History teacher I Hate to copy why must you tell me to copy!!!!!!! Hate coping going to sleep le don't care what will happen next min / sec i Just Need my SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tired day......

22042009

2009-04-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

Today i am not that Emo cos from today onwards i don't need to go F&N but D&T haha(=

sorry haidah and kelvin i so sorry that i left you guys when i promise to take the same bus home I am so sorry.......

today i get my new concession pass haha it looks ugly lor S=

Donno why I think Ann's photo on her concession pass is very cute lor and pretty of cos and also Emi's bus pass....

Feel that Kai Xian really change alot what about me cos few days ago i saw her and she really change what about me.....

All the class languages will come out from my Mouth and sometime i really ask myself why cant i just stop saying the languages......

Felicia stop saying all the lie to us la I don't like it when it come to a very serious things then u standing at a side giving reasons.........

Tomorrow need to stay back just because there will be this stupid interview coming donno what is that for sia........

anw today i should be happy and not sad or anything else.........

Need to do my home work le if not tomorrow dont submit will die......

2009-04-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

Hi I am finally back home after all the training i have alone i know you will think that i am Emo and i also feel that i am Emo something but I am like that all the time cos now all the pressure really comes towards me and hope that i wont be sick through out this week although now i am feel a bit sick now......
Just now on the way home Haidah sms me and the two of us sms each other stupid things and cos she just refuse to take together cos i did some very funny thing and i donno why i sms her all those rubbish is like those kind of language is use la and today i see Dragon ball revolution is like the last part is so style lor and the move is so powerful lor....
Enjoy the movie and time in school this week i have a interview in school and i am afraid that i say wrong thing or something i say will be wrong so worry about it and lot of things mum is back cannot watch television and use computer at the same time......
Have not eat dinner yet donno what to eat sia never mind i think i am going to cook again .........
Ann please take care of your leg ok? will keep you in prayer as well as Emi , Joshua and my cell member and joshua please come to church ok without you i am so random and our cell only the 2 of us can understand each other a lot any problem share with me ok i am always there for you and for a lot of people ................

2009-04-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday after service went to eat ice cream chef and is still the same 4 ppl together Ann , Emi ,TC and me =D
After going ice cream chef i went to mount batten CC before i reach i am lost for quite long is better then last time go out with friend then lost in the end went home alone ......
Not use to have a Big Big cell together but how i feel is let eat together as one cell cos like no matter what we are not the smaller cell anymore I am also not use to it but i must try to meet them up for lunch sometime yup(=
Today i am late for school again i should have go and have some food before going to school lor sit there do nothing just wait for teacher to take the stupid medicine ball then go field and jog 1 round this term I am late for 2 time le feel so bad just because i want to sleep more in the end over slept feel so guilty sia
Thank God mum never shoot me and i just go bath and then use computer for a while and went to sleep ........
Hope to go out this week and hope to watch movie anyone want to go ?
wish to go out and have dinner also if no everyday eat the same thing I will die sooner or later
sad right picture yourself eating the same thing everyday I think u will go crazy after sometime.......
Lastly Constance thank you that you still remember spiritual birthday and Happy Birthday to Liuyan,Macus
Love all of you even if you forget about my spiritual birthday =D

Brand new day

2009-04-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

Today at least not so stress and I never go NPCC cos i am excuse hahaha! After school I go for the math test that i miss last donno how many week today is really a brand new day that is how i feel la and this suppose to last though out my day but the feeling that is dry come back and Whatever decision i make will be wrong that is how i feel cos no matter thing that i done my best she will never say anything good to me I really dont like it and can she just let me decide what I want once just once and that is all I need but she Never give me chance ............

Life SUCKS!!!

2009-04-16T19:17:00.000+08:00

Somehow what I have gone though these few day i find that my life sucks and is so sucks that i don't like whatever thing I have done in school ......
Today go back to school the ppl in my class SUCKS my 'EX-wife' in class say I always side Felicia I did not even side Felicia every time everyone in class have eyes to see one lor who I always side is her what I get in the end of the day is get the blame today during English i told my teacher and i request to stay out side the class cos I am just so angry.....
Whatever I face at home no one knows today come back home mum say you go back to tampines then you won't come back then make me help u move all your things I told her I won't Why she cannot just believe me once ????? Ppl who always believes in me is really my cell only why can't I just have a family that wants me and never treat me like a ball kick around !!!!!!
I am sick is not what I want always say that Monday to Friday I will get sick then Saturday and Sunday i won't fall sick just say that I go out and play all the time and don't know what i do in saturday and sunday then anyhow say All of you don't want me then why in the 1st place you all love me !!!!
When i am crying where are all of you ????
Where are you when I am sick???
When i need to see a doctor where are you????
When i need you where are you????
When I need someone there where are you???
When i am stress where are you????
When i am break down where are you????
When i am younger where are you why don't you want me?????
When I am being Blame where are you????
When I am young I want to find mummy where are you????
When i am crying in the room where are you?????
I am so sick and tired in school I hate school !!!!!!!